wellllll

life is too weird.

i'm friends with the fools new girlfriend. i met her while with my brother... Shes cute, sweet and not fat. i actually like her... its comforting that there are things about her that i'd never want to be... she's into sports, might live in slo for the rest of her days...i don't know. its better to have met her. Thank god she wasn't with him. I would have thrown up.

what-else... my co-workers friend asked me to go on a hike sometime... i thought i might like him but now i'm thinking he creeps me out a bit. so pass.

the musician txted me the other day to see if i wanted to go with him to a show but i was outta town... not sure if i want to go anyhow.

also THE ACTOR... Ghostbusters... i well... this is a good story.
i acted in a friends short film and became acquainted with a guy i went to high school with... now that i remember we acted once together in HS and we actually kissed then too... it was part of a possible orgy situation involving a kinda whorish girl who was doing make up and another cute guy who is actually dating one of my friends now... he also lived with my cousin... anyway Ghostbusters. we built some crazy sexual tension acting and ending up kissing the night we wrapped. there was an awesome wind blowing... we kissed in The Fools kitchen. it was wet and quick... and very nice.

anyhow we bantered on a social site and met up the next time i was in town.
we slept together and it was awesome. honestly i started to think i was bad at it after the couple times with... with a guy i haven't mentioned here! man... well call him BM (he's part of someone else's dream... but i'll get to him in a second)
GB wants to see me again... maybe over Christmas break.

ok
BM

We met almost a year ago.. last Christmas... right after the fool let me go. Christmas day actually. he walked in with one of my bffs and her then fiance... i thought they were brothers but turns out they were best friends. i actually changed my shirt when i saw him so that i wouldn't look like an abominable snow man. we hung out that night and i got the feeling he liked me. then we hung out the next night, danced and made out. slept in the same bed together. he asked me to go with him to a concert for new years but we had a misunderstanding where both of us thought the other had the others number.
anyway long story short we've been in contact on and off all year. he's friends with my dad now. my mom thinks he's adorable. but we still don't really know eachother. living in different cities... plus he's a little crazy i think...drinks too much maybe... smokes too much maybe... and god knows what else really. if we were closer i think he'd listen to any request i had and try to be a great boyfriend... my bff thinks he's a bad influence on her now husband... i'm not really sure about that. i do know that they don't question anything the other does. it's all go team with them.

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ok
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re: BM... I told one of my close friends this: "He's all made of light and stuff."
... he is... it would be a lot of work though. he needs help of some kind... that's my type. fixer-uppers.

Ghostbusters would not be this sort... but who know's what he actually feels about me... i'm on to feelings... now that i'm trying to wear a chastity belt. i want someone to go on dates with.
looking for my equal.

still really dont have the time. still fixing up myself...
need to set some sights on school... get out of the cubical lifestyle...