My heart is looking for somewhere to rest! It sucks!!
Heard that a person I was convinced I was in love with quite a while ago is seeing someone new. She's one of our acquaintances baby mama... No offense to the mothers out there but WHAT THE FUCK.
Another guy friend met a great girl. He's not exactly the type you think is going to get a model girlfriend. But seems to be going down. I'm really happy for him. I just gets one to thinking WHAT THE FUCK...
OH GOD DAMN IT ALL. Will I never meet my match? Where are my equals? I'm such a homebody and I know that doesn't help much in meeting people but come on... Plus I'm hanging out with really young people. Most of them have never been in a long committed relationship... I keep going to gay bars because my gay friend is my most active companion. Also not a great place to meet straight men... I'm also thinking about how much harder it's going to be when I move North... where 3 outta 4 men are going to be gay. then 3 out of 4 straight men will be in committed relationships.
I'm really bad today. I keep thinking about people that I already decided I wasn't going to pursue. Like GB and my friends friend... What the hell!! I still need to figure myself out... but I'm gettin close. Maybe that's why I'm seeking a major distraction. Facing yourself is hard.
