balls

so i guess i'm not over the fool...
nope
nope
balls

i met someone special
but now
i can't think about anyone else
just sleeping in his arms tied me up again

then i fucked it up again
again is a big thing
drunk dialed
don't know what i said
been radio silence ever since

so much the better
but damn
damn
damn

met an artist who seemed cool
then he drunk texted me cursing
and being all crazy

damn again
can't let someone so like me into my life

and the someone special
i'm worried
i'm just going
to leave him in the dust
of my obsessions

so fuck em all
focus
focus
focus

and buy a vibrator?

a night of peace

i got sick and it gave me a reason to be able to stay home.
rest
i keep pushing myself
i need rest

i've been fairly certain i'll never find my equal
i've been in love
but the people have rarly been my equal
i've been protecting myself-?

fulfillment ends
i have to pursue joy
which comes with pain

i have been

right...

i have, been right.

oh rest
silence

empty hands without remorse.