She had an unequalled gift... of squeezing big mistakes into small opportunities.

- Henry James

Its true.
...
what should I do?

The Fool and The Unfinished Painting

" When love is not madness, it is not love."

Pedro Calderon de la Barca

I fell in love. It's really, really stupid. With a completely impossible person.
And now what? Be an adult and just say no?
When I really really don't want to.
I haven't felt this way in a while.
But its a few things
1. too soon?
2. with a close friend to my ex
3. with a total child
4. with someone as messed up as me
5. best kiss ever
6. i'm totally insane

Crush #1

totally not my type
and that's a good thing
the kind of guy who takes better care of himself than i ever would
but wouldn't have to.

blalalalalala

too close too close
brings a person to tears
i haven't wanted something i couldn't have in a while
i guess that's nice.

first night at home alone

went alright.
held off from calling anyone
a great achievement for me.

i played guitar
started writing some songs

fell asleep

dreams of old ex's

holding it together

Daily Reminder

But if you do not find an intelligent companion, a wise and well-behaved person going the same way as yourself, then go on your way alone, like a king abandoning a conquered kingdom, or like a great elephant in the deep forest. - Buddha