Ambition is like love, impatient both of delays and rivals. - Buddha

blablabla

ghostbuster came to visit... was nice. but i think i want to tell him we can't see each other. it was kinda couple-y again.
think i might be in love with BM.
why's he such an idiot.
it makes me one.

the year of the year

ok so shite...
follow up:
the fools new girlfriend is his ex. she cheated on him in a bit of a crazy way. eh. my ex told me. nice.

ummm had a date with GB over the break went really well. physical aspects not as good as before. but that's a good thing. if it had been i'd be in real trouble. he was really sweet and it was kinda couple-y.

almost made out with two people i'm glad i didn't.

one is really cute and kinda awesome but is basicly family. you don't fuck with that.

woke up with something going on that i wasn't aware of on new years. glad i came to when i did. my first love told me i kiss in my sleep. well i hope that's all.
jesus.

anyhow then saw the BM before i left. kinda strange. but good. had been bitter that he wasn't getting in contact with me but now its different. it's like he's just waits for me to contact him. like i'm super busy with my awesomeness... which is true

since the fool i've been protecting my heart vigilantly. sex is one thing. dating another. love + me= sucksville.
what's a girl to do?

"i have a crush on every boy"
i do though. so much to like about most people. no focus. none at all.


oh! and BM came to visit me a few weeks ago. was pretty romantic walking around in the rain practically the whole weekend... then we didn't talk at all. its so strange.