major fuck up 09

well its that time
to make a real change

the fool is in love with someone else

he's gone

and on top of the matter i fucked up big
too much to drink
blackout
naked

ew
oh god no.

and its not the first time
it needs to be the last time

i recieved a true heart of friendship
i'm going to keep it in mine

no drinking for a time
a long time

one day at a time
slowly fix it
there are better ways
there's so much more to life
jesus i keep typing 'time'
that's the issue

i'm sick, taking pills
greatful that i'll get better
sometime

with the fool in the arms of a real love i'm left looking at myself
i don't want to fall in love
i just started getting sex on a semiregualr basis without getting hurt or having a relationship... which is idealy what i want right now... but what would be great would be to meet someone i just couldn't help but fall for. looking for a 'soulmate' haha
right
cautiously optimistic

just got to remember i've got alot to do
while everyone else gets distracted
put together something for everyone
a place where love doesn't die
strength that won't let others give in
a place called home

the front porch to beat all front porches.
i can have a heart big enough to forgive
i can have a mind strong enough to know when to let go
and when to hold on

i can hold them all in my arms and not feel loss or lost
just to find someone to hold for a moment is amazing enough
to be allowed to share in it is the proof of humanity

be the change you want to see in the world
be your own hero


be impeccable with your word
don't take anything personally
don't make assumptions
always do your best